Feels like begging...

So my stats for my blogs have been good (great, actually) for March. I spend a lot of time replying to comments left on my blog and leaving comments on others' blogs. I figure I've got to give to get, right?

But it still feels so...strange to me. Almost feels like begging. Like, "Please, pretty please. I promise you I'm a great writer and you'll be entertained and I have the site that you have been looking for....everything I write I do with you in mind! Please come! Write comments! Link to me! Please!"

Ugh. And who wants to hear that? No one. So I need to focus on just making my content better and inviting the folks that do come by to kick off their shoes and stay awhile. :)

Still blogging....

Slowly but surely, this blog thing is taking off. I'm posting on an every day schedule now, and getting more and more comments (which I love). I love the dialogue and the psuedo-friendship that arises.

I've also been getting a lot of PR pitches, which surprised me at first. I was like, "Me? My little ol' blog?" But then I realized that my stats aren't half bad and I do have a bit of a "following." So if these pitches result in more giveaways for my readers, then I'm cool with that.

I never started blogging so I could become famous (although I'm open to being rich!). I started because I couldn't find a community that spoke to my needs as a young mother. I had to create it myself. I'd say I'm off to a good start.

Why it's not so easy to be a pseudo-freelancer

I do consider myself a freelance writer, even though I have a full-time job, because I write outside of work and get paid for it.

But it's rough. Some days I feel like quitting because there are so many obstacles. Lack of time during the day (because I'm working) to write, leaving me the hours between 9 p.m. and midnight to get most of my work done. Feeling stifled with my writing style because I wouldn't want to say anything that reflects poorly upon my company. Lack of flexibility to interview subjects. (I usually interview folks on the West coast, just because the time difference usually works for me.)

But I'm still determined. I don't really believe in only having one source of income. It makes me nervous. I grew up with an uneasy feeling about my family's financial security and I carry that burden with me to this day.

So I work and I write, I work and I write, I work and I write. That's my life in a nutshell. Completely exhausting, but very satisfying.